The Complex Faces of Trauma: and God’s full rescue!!
How systematic trauma operates on the human psyche and body
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“First of all let me tell you— I love you. And even though this will be a very sober posting about what happens to us in this realm; it will be a worthwhile endeavor to explore with our Lord and Savior: he is working his salvational workmanship in it all, detailing it all out, and leading us forward in what to do about all of it. And little by little— he will lead us out of the valley of the shadow of death— and into full liberty of God’s heavenly abode, being, presence, and identity: God bless you all richly.”
—Love, Janet Lynn
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We talk often about demons… but I’d like to talk about dark aspects of the individual soul. What do I mean? I mean, when we incarnate into this realm we forget who we were before this realm. And who we were before this realm is spirit and form and attributes of that of our Creator— the Lord God— in unique combinations that make individualized spirit entities.
When we incarnate here— our spiritual identities send a portion of the consciousness that is the spiritual aspects of ourselves— to earth as a soul: all planned out by our heavenly Father— hence the breath of spirit that animates us of each (becomes soul incarnation).
When we enter in as that soul incarnation we have things already planned as to what we will be encountering in this realm— both good and evil— with an agenda, a purpose, a plan of action as to how our blueprint will go. Now— I know— many are thinking— “I would have NEVER chosen what I did!” But I assure you— the point was to ascend out of the messes that were orchestrated in our indoctrination of the knowledge of good and evil. The ‘and’ part must be remembered: good ‘and’ evil: which means the evil will touch our lives— and we are to ‘be’ the children of God with Christ— and eradicate the darkness by love and truth being upheld in our vessels (as is in heaven— with our spirit seated with the Lord God).
Let me say something about our spirit— when it is in the spirit realm (which is always— I will elaborate) —it is part of the ‘whole;’ meaning— it can see, know, and experience the totality of life— inside God’s abode, all realms— including 2nd heaven, 1st heaven of the earth’s atmosphere, and here on earth. Our spirit, like the Lord’s Spirit— is everywhere that the consciousness can be: we are here in body, spirit, and as a living soul, and we are in heaven— seated with Christ, and we are wherever our spiritual consciousness needs to be— at any given moment: hence we say— we were ‘in the spirit,’ not in the body— when we are caught up to other realms with the Lord God.
So— the more fullness of our spirit remains with the Lord God on the other side— projecting your spirit’s consciousness into a material realm (seated with Christ, the Father/Son relationship in the ethereal [which I mean— the spiritual content that just is— whether in body or out]); so that we can have an experience with what it is like to have all knowledge of good and evil to sort through and experience (with the plan that we would overcome the evil— and be re-turned (that means go back to) what we always were: predestined to come into the image of the Son: for truly— our spirit and His are in the ether together— assisting us to walk out the volume of the book written of us.
As an example— last night in meditations with the Lord, I was walking around in heaven with the Lord God and the others that are on the team that oversees my life in this realm (indeed— there is a great cloud that is actually helping us behind the scenes everyday, all day, all the time, as it was set up before we incarnated), and I heard one look at me and speak to the others and the Lord, saying— “She is of the classics,” and I was curious about that: to which I saw— there are books, like templates, that our spirit identities/persons look over before choosing with the Lord— what we shall encounter in the realm of the material bodily life— in the land of good and evil knowledge/experience. And what I heard from the Lord concerning it was—
“From Trauma to Triumph.” Ya’ll there are book ‘themes’ we sign on for; and I apparently signed on for going through the absolute mill down here from demonic oppressions— to eventually overcome— and be seated in triumph at the end of it all with Jesus. As I had said before— from the pits of Hell to Heaven. And you all chose, as well.
But my point is this— I cannot walk out being the triumphant overcomer who chooses good over evil— if I don’t have a situation where evil was presented to me to overcome; and hence— I’d like to talk to you about how trauma comes to be, but also how it absolutely dissembles the spiritual-soul identity down here when it happens to us; and it leaves these aspects of ourselves endarkened; and I saw these parts of our spiritual-soul identity (meaning— that in which we ‘are’ in heaven with God), being blocked from being ‘all we can be’ in the soul area that is being projected into the soul earth life; because the spiritual makeup (like schematics in the spirit realm) got tampered with, adjusted with twisted light, and became an endarkened, and frankly, an aspect of us that was shutoff toward our true nature/identity/person— and the Lord’s authentic person: because something happened that changed us out of the proper shape, likeness, form, and identity— that is as God is: and I call these the dark shadowed soul aspects (because their light is darkened, obscured, hidden); but when the Lord shines the straight, true, pure light of life upon them, unto them— they can be seen clearly as to who and what they were supposed to be— before trauma and darkness touched them and changed them.
I saw, last night, as I looked at an individual (as I sat in the heavenly room with the Lord and my ensemble team that lovingly oversees my life in this realm with Jesus), and when I looked at this individuals life schematics (plan, person, identity, purposes, etc) I saw these dark holes in their soul life here: like swiss cheese missing in action parts.
Now— I was told and shown a few things about these ‘parts of us.’ One thing I was shown is that each dark part had a portion of the soul identity that is being projected from the real us in and of the ethereal spiritual realm— and it was oppressed by darkness. I saw how satan’s kingdom had demons that were working through people (and some just whispering into people all day long), that had either done or said evil things ‘toward our person,’ that devastated the new soul in this realm so much so that the soul portion that went through such terrorizing by dark knowledge/experience/message and witness— went dark itself: overwhelmed. And it essentially— shutoff, and shutdown: went dormant, died, animationless— as from what it was supposed to be, powerdown mode, standby mode; but also— stuck in the lower vibrational darkness of the message and witness of the demonic with it: I saw— it need to be brought out of oppression, into the truth and love, washed up, resurrected fully back to life, and reintegrated into the whole of the soul identity again.
When I saw Jesus demonstrate all of this— to the soul I was looking at of their spiritual-soul interface schematics; I saw Jesus and each person’s spirit— call the soul parts in an invitation to come back home, confront the Light, Love, and Truth of God AND our spirit man who loves our souls; and I saw each little dark black hole of spiritual-soul identity, swiss cheese missing, endarkended, turned off little soul piece— come to Jesus and have their light restored: and when this happened— the soul part reintegrated— and I saw the missing swiss cheese soul aspect— get filled in, and turned into the rest of the identity (like swiss cheese holes being filled back in with cheese— not just emptiness any longer): it was extraordinary love, invitation, as God and our spirit-man called all to ‘come to the light/truth.’ And when they did— they became light again —walking and abiding in the truth, cleaned up, scrubbed, whose paths are now made straight, and whose light of authentic identity was now turned back on, not hidden under a bushel basket, nor oppressed of the devil any longer.
Because what I saw was that when God and the soul part choose to align again in proper spiritual identity, to come out of the darkness, into the glorious light and truth and love of God— and the person’s true spirit identity; the devils cannot hang onto that spiritual signature of the spiritual-soul now— for it is existing in an entirely different realm now (heaven with God), and that’s a whole different frequency of cleaned up vibration of light— as God is: and they cannot comprehend/apprehend that kind of light or identity: hence— rescued, healed, delivered— into the truth and wholeness of being: devils can only hang on a person— if their spiritual signatures match: like bitterness, depression, rage, apathy, falsities— not believing the truth, worthlessness, etc; which all comes in through trauma: things that happen to us in this realm— that changes our spiritual-soul-identity interface (what we see and believe ourselves to be, that is different from who we really are in the ethereal realm of spirit only).
When God rescues us in this way, WITH the cooperation of our spirit (that’s seated with him in heavenly places) —the soul is brought back into whom it always was, whole, healed, delivered— into the truth, love, and proper form again: it’s truly extraordinary cooperation, unity, oneness with God’s identity— and our own spirit identity in him, working together for one soul being (and then that’s multiplied to us all, happening to us all, available to us all).
I do want to say, as well, that there is another aspect to our soul identity aspects being overtaken by the trauma and demonic message and witness that changes us, endarkens our spiritual identity parts in this realm; and that is that— the demonic (dark energies that attach to physical bodies, with a message and witness they bring with them— meaning— how they will act, think, and propose ideas or conduct) —they will attempt to take over the vehicle/vessel— through— the endarkened soul parts, locked away, dead or non-animated imprisioned parts that changed, bent, got warped, pervereted, turned around: and this is what we know as desiring to attempt to steal, kill, and destroy: first it begins with disheveling the spiritual-soul identity, getting it broken up, twisted, not as it was originally— by having had evil touch their lives through others; and then they desire to get ‘enough of’ the person all twisted up, entrapped, locked away, light off— that those swiss cheese pieces begin to be the majority of the person’s idenity: and then— they have the majority rule in a disheveled soul— and we call this possession: it’s not real possession— like ownership; but it is like the saying— ‘Possession is 9/10ths of the law,’ which means— whoever is in control and hold of the object— the ownership is in their hands (whether legal or illegal): that is why healing and deliverance, rescue of the spriitual-soul identity— is so very important: we are literally, with God, putting a person back together— after getting their soul parts back from being prodigal, cleaned up, straightened out, light turned back on, in proper working order, reintegrated, and whole: and that’s where satan looses.
Because satan with lies and untruths of identity— cannot hang on any longer— when a part of a person's soul returns to God and their rightful spiritual identity: they must let go— for that person is now— ‘with God and the truth:’ so they— are then set free of another dimension, another spiritual signature, another way, another overlord, another kingdom: and are set free into the liberty and fullness of a child of God— receiving their resurrection and inheritance in Jesus Christ.
So— after this time with my team in heaven and the Lord— I said to Jesus:
“I’m just going to invite EVERYBODY, every voice, comment, attitude, display of idea, words, or actions— to come to the Light. In that— it’s a win-win God; for everyone will be invited to get straightened out, in the full view of the light, truth, and love; and if the demonic are opposed to that— they will flee in 7 directions, God. I will welcome and love every spiritual identity that I come nigh unto: inviting all— to have a face to face with me and Jesus.” 😁
God is desiring for us to have a good life with him— we ought to let Life be good to us, as we cooperate with the Lord God, in the land of the living— and the spirit realm— to the retrieval of all that we are: full salvation— worked out (that means participated and joined with) —by our spirit-man and our soul, in union with our heavenly Father— and teams of beings helping us. Because, literally— if we continue to be living in and from darkness (broken, disheveled, falsity, twisted, dissociated— not joined, nor united with the truth and love, and our true identity) it will eventually— kill us (separate, overcome, and remove us) from our true identity and union with our heavenly Creator: and also— take out the vehicle (material body) because the light body was corrupted so much so— in the soul life; that it now cannot sustain life— for it is far too entangled with death (broken, disheveled, falsity, twisted, dissociated— not joined, nor united with the truth and love, and our true identity).
So— we must be uplifting, nourishing, nurturing, loving— to our own identities— as we are in heaven, so be it in the soul/earth— and come through all the soul trauma rescue, deliverance into the truth that frees us (the truth of us in our identities with Christ), and healed— to wholeness of identity again: rebuilt on the truth, love, and true-form identity. Because soul-shrinkage or loss— is the real root of physical illness and dis-ease; for it cannot sustain life— if so much death doth reign in its members, via— trauma changed souls parts (swiss cheese holes).
So— let us live our purpose in the earth: to be as we are in heaven, in our spiritual identity, with Jesus— as Jesus or the Son is: and let the uniqueness of each of our spiritual-souls shine unto all of God’s creation: for our purpose— is to live our authentic identities, and be, simply— in the earth— as we already are in the seated presence of God— outside the soul identity entirely, seated as our spiritual identity in the heavenly realm abode of God, in Christ.
Let’s STOP our spiritual-soul life identity from being snuffed out by satan and overtaken: we are to be the overtaking, overcomers, of our own identities; and we do this— by being seated with Christ, always, in the ether spiritual realm (which is all places to be), and overseeing our soul identity (projected identity) lives in this realm, taking them seriously, soberly, and lovingly— to the full recovery, reintegration, resurrection of proper spiritual identity, unto its wholeness again— which will get us to walking in the fullness of the stature of Christ in us: that— is the hope of glory (divine spiritual dignity) in us once again: and it’s all doable with God— as all things are possible with God: so let’s Emmanuel this thing in the soul!!! For God is with us!!!
NO ONE should be able to, if we are unwilling to allow our souls to remain entrapped— be allowed to abort our identities, lives, light, purpose, and wholeness: for satan desires to abort our spiritual-soul lives in this realm— by endarkening us, and entrapping us— in self imposed prisons of identity— that only we in union with God and our true spiritual identity can set us free from: most do not do this retrieval, serious, recollection of the prodigal son parts— into full integrated, cleansed, reformed, rejoined, wholeness of identity: but we can, and indeed are supposed to— as we WORK OUT OUR SALVATION WITH REVERENCE (fear and trembling).
He once said to me— “Why do you tremble with fear and reverence when working out salvation, Janet?” And I said:
“Because the soul parts are scared (like demons are) to come into your presence— because the soul parts have hidden away in shame, fear, or any dark attribute, stuck, entrapped— with dark energy (demons) and its message and witness; so coming to the light exposes the darkness— and causes it to tremble. As we come through healing and deliverance we shake, shiver, and manifest the darkness— as it is shaken from us in deliverance, and the demonic can no longer hold on: hence— fear and trembling— as we come before the Light, the Love, and the Truth— that embraces us in the filth— but washes us clean in your presence, person, light, and love: liberated children of God— fear and tremble in the presence of God— as they are delivered and liberated.”
Let’s let no one abort our identities, which includes our purposes and expression— as God is: let’s address this today— and definitely— before leaving this world or realm. I love you, and so does your heavenly Creator: PLEASE— do, take all of this before the Lord God, have him help you with it all. The Holy Spirit has been given us to bring us into all of Truth.
We must overcome the trauma— that changes our identity; so let’s see what that is, and how we go about that with the Lord: and thus— we shall understand the Lord God, as Yeshua— the God who saves his people, resurrects them from death to life, and from bound— to free!!!
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“Janet, you have been traumatized again and again and again— to the point of becoming ‘non-functional’ as the person I made you to be; not dysfunctioning only— non-functional: meaning, dear— you shut down entirely and went within. You as well— went within SO FAR— that you dissociated from your very self: that is complete shutdown: the TERROR that you’ve lived through— caused you to feel so very unsafe to ‘be.’ Period— fullstop: you became SO TERRIFIED by your everyday interactions growing up— that you dissociated (split and fragmented) from life, from social connection, and also— from yourself: to come to an attempt to not ‘be’ at all: that’s as broken as a person can become, Janet; when they become detached— from everyone, everything, including the desire to cease to ‘be’ at all anymore. That’s the DEPTHS of your TERRORIZED spiritual-soul in this realm. And so— you have been chosen to overcome— trauma: to be resurrected in your spiritual identity, to grow into maturity, to become healed, whole, and integrated once again: and the work we are doing privately, combined with the work we are bringing forth publicly— is all part of this mission of salvation to the fullness thereof.”
—The Lord God
Now it’s time to come ‘out of’ trauma and identity loss— into being healed, integrated, and made whole in my identity in Christ, allowed safely to ‘be’ again. And it’s been A REAL FIGHT to get to this point, even. To the point where I am understanding all of this, being invited to come forth, stay in it, feel it, talk about it, express it, process it, and get it resolved; so that I am integrated and made whole again— in Christ (his workmanship in me); so that I can bring it all forward— and others can do the same— should they choose to be brave and trusting to the Lord God, our heavenly Father, and the Holy Spirit: to feel, express, move through, process, integrate, and resolve (become whole again): and I pray many shall. And indeed even— we (the collective of the body of Christ) can get more healed, Lord, and then they can become— facilitators of this too: healing and deliverance persons with you on mission unto your people.
The Lord God will talk about trauma in general; and then, like mine— we will, at the end of this, talk about ‘complex’ trauma, and why it’s much greater or harder to understand— than just a really hard traumatic incident here or there: it’s systematic, ritualistic (done by repeated program and pattern again and again), ongoing, relentless— oppression: and it’s done by people— moved by darkness.
Oppression definition— comes from the Latin root opprimere, meaning ‘to press down, crush, or subdue.’ It has Latin roots and is formed from ob- (meaning) ‘against or down,’ and is combined with premere (meaning) ‘to press.’ The past participle oppressus literally means ‘pressed against’ or ‘squeeze.’ And in its French— it entered as opression (12th century) and the verb opresser. And it’s middle English— was adopted in by the mid-14th century as oppressioun (noun) and oppressen (verb), carrying early meanings that included— physical hardship, mental heaviness, and in some historical contexts— rape.
The etymology paints a physical picture of ‘being’ —heavily weighed down, crushed, or suffocated —by an outside force. Over time, this physical metaphor shifted into its modern social sense: the cruel, unjust, or burdensome exercise of power and authority over a person or group.
Okay, so… We can understand the gist of oppression now; but what I am focusing on at the moment is that it is HUMANS that do this to one another in this realm (albeit— by demonic entities engaged with).
HUMANS— press one another down, crush them, or subdue their authentic identity expression. HUMANS— come against and press or hold others down (spiritually or physically, or both) by the ‘squeeze:’ which interestingly means— intense pressure and being forced into a position (place).
And HUMANS —are the ones who, in this realm, that place spiritual, psychological, emotional, physical, energetic harship —on one another: which results in a person experiencing rape: and rape can be spiritual— clearly— and not just physical: some— have experienced both the spiritual, psychological, emotional, identity, overpowering, cruel authority— that some HUMAN— subjected them to: suffocating the life out them, or the identity out of them— to be trapped— ‘elsewhere.’
And THAT— is why we need to coax these little parts back into the safety of the Lord God, the truth, love, and our higher self— or spiritual self and identity; in order that the fullness of our identity be secured, positioned, and able to be expressed: TO BE LIVED.
And it simply is the definition of (Jude 1:22–23) ‘and some, having compassion— making a difference, save, by reverence— pulling them out of the fire, hating even the garment— spotted by the flesh.’ It is a salvation rescue— hating that the spiritual-soul incarnate should suffer the darkness, even a little, from the flesh-nature (enacted upon us by others). Or worse— by complex trauma, systematic, and consistently repeated— then the self, themselves, begins to go further away from just others or life— but from themselves, as well; for they fear no way out of all the thoughts, and the pain, and emotions, and suffering— and fear that they are what other humans have shown unto them, and that there is no way out of this reality: so that they dissociate from themselves— and further into darkness strongholds.
I have such DEEP compassion for the people’s suffering: because I know it is multi-generational, rarely and overcome in this realm, but yet what most everyone NEEDS: to be healed, rescued, made whole in identity again, brought up under God in love and true-form exemplified— unto their true and authentic spiritual identities.
The Lord had said to me that my light was hunted upon arrival in this realm— to be systematically deconstructed and dismantled: and boy has it been: I completely lost sight and awareness of who I am— because it’s been buried, I have been buried under fear, oppression, over-powering, intimidation, pain and suffering (beatings and mental poundings— physical and psychological), dissociation, coping, and hiding: GOOD GOD ALMIGHTY— do I desire to see my own identity and person raised from death to life— in Christ: and then to see others who have lived this too (as perpetrators— who were oppressed, who now oppress others— who need to see the light, or those who have been victims of this demonic patterning and expression) be set free in the Lamb of God.
Our heavenly Father in Christ and his Holy Spirit— is taking me from death to life, from lost— to found again, and from prodigal (run away) to returned: to be whole and integrated, unified with God— and my own spiritual identity, IN THIS REALM, again: and I desire this for all others— and thus— these posts of study and spiritual practise with the Lord God. And the darkness cannot comprehend/apprehend the Light in this workmanship of Christ— we shall prevail— into the fullness of my spiritual identity regained: the enemy has lost— and all damages incurred— are highly detailed by the Lord God; and will be recovered in full: amen. (And it can be the same for ALL OF US!)
I hope you are blessed by this; and it causes you to seek the Lord’s face about all of it; and perhaps— come out of trauma and loss of identity— into ‘be-’coming— freed, reintegrated recognizes, and whole of identity— in/of Christ Jesus, and the heart of our Father’s handiwork. ❤️🩹
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When exploring the faces of trauma— we are actually seeking in love, and a curiosity— our own aspects (faces) of our identity— that have been lost, disheveled, and hidden away. And these young and vulnerable facets of our identity (parts), as they get overwhelmed and locked away (or exiled) — it is in an attempt to protect the rest of the spiritual and physical system —the soul and body. Because— over time— the physical body becomes the container or vault for these unexpressed, unmanifested elements of us that were not safely allowed to be expressed.
Layer-by-Layer Architectural Breakdown
Phase 1: The Inciting Trauma
The Blueprint: An individual experiences a profound threat, prolonged invalidation, or an environment where expressing their true emotional reality or identity carries a consequence (rejection, danger, or abandonment, etc). It’s a place where a child may perceive and then reason that— ‘If I continue as I am authentically— I risk being ostracized, punished, having pain inflicted upon me, or suffering in some aspect; so I shall “go away” to another place, or to be no more: so that I can continue with this family— as they demand of me in “being.”’ And THAT— is horrifying to me.
Phase 2: Psychological Suppression & Splitting
The Mechanism: To preserve immediate safety or social survival, the conscious mind employs— defense mechanisms. The unexpressed emotional pain, grief, or authentic identity is —split off or compartmentalized. Because it cannot move outward through expression (voice, tears, or safe action), so— it moves inward (entrapped, in a stronghold, held under duress, captive, incapacitated, and lost and dead to expression of life/living).
Phase 3: Somatic & Energetic Encapsulation
The Spiritual & Energetic Origin: Emotions are fundamentally energy in motion (e-motion). When halted, this dynamic flow becomes a stagnant, localized energetic density (think dense, like dragging an anchor around). In spiritual and holistic paradigms, this is viewed as an energetic encapsulation—a localized disruption in the body's subtle biomagnetic or biofield flow. The unexpressed aspect of identity is literally— locked within the fascial networks and energetic matrices of specific body regions.
And this is why they are just now finding in science that fibromyalgia (myalgia = muscle pain), which I was diagnosed with at 19 years old— is psychological/psyche/soul issues of energetic form— trapped in the fascia of the body (the interfacing connective net that interfaces with soul and the totality of the physical body— dealing with spiritual things): science is catching up to spiritual-structural function— in/of the human body— and its coping mechanisms (fragmentation) and where it takes the unprocessed and unexpressed pain and suffering of the soul: into the fascia of the body to be stored (memory and expression).
When the body does this though, and when the soul fragments— it depletes, rather than repletes.
Phase 4: Autonomic & Neurobiological Adaptation
The Body's Response: The nervous system interprets this unexpressed, encapsulated threat as an ongoing internal crisis; and hence— autoimmune issues, or chronic conditions of myalgia or breakdown: the spiritual energy literally/spirtually— eats away at the energy stores of normal Holy Spirit filled life lived— to uphold the MASSIVE energy reserves it takes to sustain a ball of angry, hurt, or stressed energy and message— within itself (the body).
Sustained Sympathetic Tone: The body stays locked in a localized, micro-level fight-or-flight response —and this is that prison of draining our life energy: and where the demonic feed off of such states of spiritual expression. And why we TREMENDOUSLY need to come to be healed and delivered: first of the soul and body trapped expression— and the demonic with the soul’s release.
Myofascial Bracing: Muscles and fascia (the body's connective tissue network) chronically contract around the site of the stored energy to physically ‘hold it down’ or ‘wall it off,’ leading to tissue ischemia (restricted blood flow [think also— the blood of Christ’s life flow]) and oxygen deprivation.
Phase 5: Chronic Physical Pain & Somatic Feedback
The Manifestation: The brain continuously receives nociceptive (pain) signals from the chronically braced tissues, ischemic zones, and hypervigilant nervous system pathways. What began as an unexpressed spiritual and emotional truth— manifests directly in the physical architecture as chronic tension, fibromyalgia, localized back or joint pain, or gastrointestinal distress, and more.
[ Phase 1: The Inciting Trauma ]
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▼ (Inability to safely express true identity or emotional pain)
[ Phase 2: Psychological Suppression & Splitting ]
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▼ (Suppressed pain shifts down into physical/energetic layers)
[ Phase 3: Somatic & Energetic Encapsulation ] ──► Stored as "Frozen Energy" (Biomagnetic Congestion)
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▼ (Nervous system stays in a chronic, localized alarm state)
[ Phase 4: Autonomic & Neurobiological Adaptation ]
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▼ (The brain interprets the physical strain/tissue tightness)
[ Phase 5: Chronic Physical Pain & Somatic Feedback ]
So, realistically— healing and deliverance would take all of that into reverse order: the chronic pain and state of not being noticed, addressed, invited/welcomed to come forward to be seen, heard, valued/loved, and integrated— comes to be, again: by the way we shall invite/welcome, encourage, and support our soul parts and expressions to come forward into the light now— out of the darkness of hiding: soul parts and spiritual identity made whole. Which would then release the nervous system from the state of chronic alarm, un-suppressing pain— because it’s released now. To be expressed. Because— in Christ (and healed, whole, mature people— spiritually) we are able to safely express the true identity and full range of spiritual emotions: full expression nurtured, permitted, and cultivated —environment of safe self expression (internal— and hopefully concerning others— external as well; as they get healed and delivered, whilst coming into the fullness of their salvation [as they work it out] with Christ Jesus and our heavenly Father, and Holy Spirit).
The Traumatic Impasse (stage 1)
When an overwhelming event occurs, the nervous system demands a response (flight, fight or freeze). If you cannot fight back or escape, that biological energy has nowhere to go. The natural expression of your boundaries or emotions— is entirely truncated.
The Fragmentation & Locking Away (stage 2)
To survive —your psyche isolates the part of you that experienced absolute terror, helplessness, or shame. This ‘part’ gets trapped or frozen at the exact age and emotional state it was in when the trauma occurred. It is locked away in a chronological time-capsule because it was never allowed to fully process or voice its experience.
The Somatic Vessel (stage 3)
Because the mind pushes these memories out of daily awareness— they migrate into the physical body. And as trauma systematically repeats— these frozen parts pile up. They manifest physically as ‘somatic armor’ —chronic tension in the shoulders, clenched jaw, congestion in the chest, or a hyper-vigilant gut. The body genuinely becomes a literal warehouse of unvocalized, unexpressed, memories (of spiritual energy locked in a story that never ends— inside the soul and body).
The Identity Blockade (stage 4)
Because so many core pieces of yourself are locked in these defensive ‘pain packets,’ your true and authentic identity cannot flow or manifest properly. You might find yourself acting from a place of survival or self-protection— rather than living out your genuine creativity, joy, peace, and presence.
Healing often involves gently turning toward those locked-away parts with curiosity and compassion— reassuring the body that it is finally safe to release the sorted memory and allow those hidden pieces of your identity to safely emerge once again (resurrect to life and manifestation).
When we experience systematic trauma— our survival instincts prioritize safety over expression.
The Fragmentation (the Little Parts)
Every time a natural response like crying, speaking up, protecting yourself, or expressing joy— is met with danger or rejection— your brain splits that response off— in an attempt to protect you: like nesting dolls— where vibrant parts of your personality are forced to stay tiny and locked inside individual boxes; because the environment didn’t allow them to safely ‘finish’ their expression: did not permit, did not foster proper personal emotional expression or unique identity expression; a person remains frozen at that exact age (in and of that part) and that moment the trauma occurred.
And that means— that part of a person never lives, or gets to be expressed, sees the light of day (if you will, smells the roses or sees the shining of the sun— so to speak); and thus— we say, with enough of this happening again and again: a person becomes a more hollowed out identity (missing components) and a shell of what they were supposed to always have been.
The Accumulation (the body as a holder)
Trauma isn’t just a cognitive memory— it is a physical event that took place, an unexpressed energy as well— that has to go somewhere: so the body acts as a storage vault. And it is why I continue to say— trauma needs to be safely released energetically, and processed till resolution (as much as is needed until it’s done) because there may be MANY parts: sometimes we think “I thought I was through this, or over this, or done with this,” but there are many locked away aspects of us that have not seen the proverbial ‘light of day,’ yet, to become integrated with our identity yet; and cause us to reflect back on the same way this felt at another time, dealing with another part that was successfully reintegrated and taken into recovery healing.
The Identity Barrier (the inability to manifest)
When your body’s energy is completely consumed by ‘holding’ these locked vaults shut to keep you safe (think about a POWERFUL, STRONG, security system running— THAT REQUIRES GREAT ELECTRICITY TO CONTINUE RUNNING: it’s draining your battery —just to continue to suppress and hold those aspects locked away “safely” [they are not safe, they are stuck in a negative feedback loop] in the body): there is very little vital life force left for anything else.
Your authentic identity requires freedom, fluidity, and safety to emerge. Instead— your personality becomes fragmented (broken away and missing in action) and then, thus, defined by your ‘defense mechanisms’ like pleasing others, hyper-vigilance, emotional numbing, or hiding— rather than who you actually are.
The true self then remains hidden underneath the heavy armor of the body’s memory-capsules (prison holds).
And that reminds me of missing memory ages, or blacked-out portions of childhood memory: it still exists— just buried somewhere, held in chains of torment, unprocessed spiritual energy (message and witness) of events too terrorizing to keep close to consciousness— hence— subconsciously these aspects of ourselves are still alive— and in torment, pain, and suffering. And we then are operating in a facade of our true identity, or a shell of, and we lose sight of who we really are— operating only as ‘who we need to be’ to keep safe: but it’s a repetitive cycle of running away— instead of processing to resolution— if we try to stay numbed out.
The Lord was saying to me that drugs or medicines to numb anxiety or severe traumatic, and somatic, suffering— is good for a momentary ‘halt’ on the sympathetic system; like— you need to go and take care of something and cannot do so if you are a complete basket case of emotional traumatic, unresolved, issues at the moment: but drugs will only stop the present manifestation of the unexpressed parts of us— in their symptoms. It will not help us HEAL— which in order to heal (which is see, feel, express/release, resolve— with God, the truth, and love) we need to FEEL THE EMOTION, and PROCESS THE MESSAGE BELIEVED AND TOLD (the perspective), and RELEASE THE ENERGY: drugs numb— so one does not CONFRONT, CONTEND FOR THE RELEASE OF THE TRAPPED SOUL PART, nor WORK WITH GOD TO FULL RESOLUTION OF THE TRAUMATIZED SOUL PART: and thus— drugs can help in one moment of time to ‘pause’ the soul suffering and body manifestation of trauma; but in the long run do nothing to set the soul free: and thus— the Lord has been speaking to me about ‘feeling’ it all, ‘letting it all come up and out,’ and exhausting the body with its tears it NEEDS to let loose of, hearing the story of what the little soul went through, and validating, loving, and embracing that part to come forward and integrate with the ‘conscious’ soul identity again: so that— IT CAN NOW BE EXPRESSED and A PART OF THE WHOLE— IN FREEDOM FROM BONDAGE, now.
I won’t poo-poo (judge negatively) medications that people take; because I have been made aware that there are phases and scenarios that people must go through, and I am only contending with my own life (and that’s enough, really) as to what the Lord and I experience in our healing journey— and why we do what we do together, when we do. I have taken drugs/medications/prescriptions for DECADES moving in all of that— I would be a hypocrite to say that I didn’t, or that I did not find some solace in some of it: but I will say this— IT NEVER— healed anything in me— like Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and depths of the Father’s love— is: as I bravely call my ‘parts’ to the surface— to, well— resurface in safety now: to be seen, heard, and valued (thus— integrated, recovered, healed, delivered, and now an active part of the core identity of me again: free to be as I was created to be— funny, loud or quite, exuberant, colorful, enigmatic, and wonderfully made by God.
Healing comes, integration comes, recovery comes, resurrection of these parts out of dungeons and prisons of self imposed protective castles— comes; when we continually, and gently, let the body know it is finally safe enough to unlock those soul parts, one by one, and let those little parts finish what they needed to say or do.
What happens with trauma (and especially complex trauma— which I will expound on more below) becomes a state of our being whereby we ask ourselves “Who am I, actually?” And that is because we are ‘trapped below’ the surface (consciousness and skin) if you will (in strongholds) in layers of defense holds. The body’s energy is entirely spent keeping the security system (the dark stronghold), and the pain and suffering— AWAY from the conscious person/identity— AWAY from manifesting it, expressing it, releasing it, and resolving it: leaving no room to manifest authentic identity of emotions, thoughts, reasoning, expression of being: and this why we are now inviting God’s people to come out of suffering and pain— BY— allowing, welcoming, fostering and nurturing a good and safe environment for these parts, thoughts, reasoning, perception, judgments and beliefs— to come up and be seen, heard, valued/loved, and integrated back up and out of prisons of estrangement (from ourselves).
The identity expression is blocked— by Fear and Survival mode: and these are some locked vaults:
Fragment 1: Childhood Joy —> Held in the chest
Fragment 2: Healthy Anger —> Held in the jaw and neck
Fragment 3: True Boundaries (crossed) —> Held in the Gut
The Cycle of Restructuring and Release
Breaking this spiritual-soul and body architectural loop generally requires reverse processing:
1. Somatic Awareness: Bringing non-judgmental attention to the physical sensations and areas of tightness in the body.
This is the area where we are going to CHOOSE to be BODY CONSCIOUS again— to see, hear, and value the body— and all it is, and all it’s been through, and what all it has done to ‘save’ us: we can now begin to focus upon the soul/body interface— and welcome, invite, process (see, hear, value/love), and resolve trauma (which really means— hard situations that locked parts of us away to never be seen or heard from again; outside the somatic screaming of the body with its emotional outbursts and physical infirmities).
And this is where we can see where we have had ‘coping strategies’ to again— SILENCE— the parts of us that need to be HEARD, and COVER-UP the parts of us that need to be SEEN, and PUSH AWAY the parts of us that need to be VALUED/LOVED: that’s why drugs— don’t solve the problem— long term, toward healing: because drugs— STOP ALL MOTIONS— so, it only ‘pauses’ what will inevitable need to be seen, heard, and loved, and welcomed back.
2. Down-Regulation: Using somatic experiencing— and nervous system regulation— to signal to the brain that it is safe to unlock the muscular bracing.
This is where we begin to let it all come up— and after the good cries, or anger explosions (in safe environments and company), or fear, or more— is able to come forward and be released/expressed, seen, heard, and validated (recognized); then the BODY— once the soul has been released to express— can down-regulate: the parasympathetic nervous system can now turn on the ‘calming, re-regulating, re-balancing’ operations again: because the TERROR— has been released in the safety of Jesus.
The muscles and body issues ‘unlock’ when the soul has been unlocked, brought forward, loved, and seen and heard— IN SAFETY and WELCOME.
3. Integrative Expression: Allowing the stored frozen energy to finally convert back into active emotion (grief, anger, or triumph) —freeing the true identity to be consciously acknowledged and integrated.
The frozen spiritual expression that is stored in the body— causes us to suffer. When we go through the invitation/welcome of the soul to come forward and be recognized and valued/validated now— the grief, anger, or even successful expression of the self— is safe to be expressed from where it was told, shown, or forced to shutdown; and in addition— is now safe, and permissible, to feel, express, and regulate all emotions and expression of person— from the safety of Christ, the Holy Spirit, and our heavenly Father— HENCE FORWARD.
And again— a great reason to (at least for the most part) forgo medications much of the time— to actually come to FREEDOM:
Invitation/welcome —> to hear, see, and value and validate the experience, situation, circumstances, pain, and suffering —> to get it all processed with the Lord, with ourselves —> to the final culmination of FREEDOM/LIBERATION— RESOLVE(d).
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Chronic vs. Complex Trauma
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[What science says]
Chronic Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition where standard or acute PTSD symptoms persist for a long duration—lasting months, years, or even a lifetime if left untreated.
Chronic PTSD vs. Complex PTSD (CPTSD)
Chronic PTSD: Involves the classic symptoms of PTSD (intrusive thoughts, avoidance, hyperarousal, negative changes in mood) that simply fail to resolve and continue —past the expected timeframe.
Complex PTSD (CPTSD): Results from prolonged, repeated trauma (such as childhood abuse, domestic violence, or captivity) and includes all standard PTSD symptoms —plus— disturbances in self-organization (DSO)—such as severe emotional dysregulation, chronic feelings of worthlessness, and profound relationship difficulties.
Common Symptoms Complex Trauma
Intrusive Re-experiencing: Flashbacks, recurring nightmares, and distressing memories of the trauma.
Avoidance: Staying away from places, people, thoughts, or activities that trigger memories of the event.
Hyperarousal & Reactivity: Persistent "fight-or-flight" state, severe insomnia, irritability, exaggerated startle response, and hypervigilance.
Negative Mood & Cognition: Persistent feelings of detachment, emotional numbness, guilt, shame, or an inability to experience positive emotions.
Health and Lifestyle Impacts
Strained Relationships: Emotional numbing, trust issues, and social withdrawal often leading to isolation or conflict with loved ones.
Physical Comorbidities: Long-term stress responses are linked to chronic health issues, including cardiovascular disease, gastrointestinal problems, autoimmune disorders, and substance use disorders.
Effective Medical Treatments
Trauma-Focused Psychotherapies: Evidence-based approaches like Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), Cognitive Processing Therapy (CPT), and Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) help reprocess trauma memories.
Medications: Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs) or other targeted medications prescribed by a psychiatrist to manage anxiety, depression, and sleep disturbances.
Phase-Based Care: For severe or complex cases, stabilization and skill-building (such as the STAIR model) precede direct trauma processing.
Now— I have participated in my past with some of these methods, including medications; but what I never got was FULL FREEDOM (from those things alone). Again— I am NOT HERE TO OFFER MEDICAL ADVISEMENTS: I am a spiritual counselor— not a medical practitioner. But I am here to speak candidly about all things I have gone through, and how I have sought out help for my state of being— in the past.
Now— I am seeking spiritual healing and deliverance with the Lord God, to become my authentic and integrated identity again— and not need any of the medications or modalities of coping; to bring forward a true representation of my actual self (not some hybridized thing others forced me into ‘being,’ in order to be accepted, through compliance to their dictate and desires— to their group [family], by playing my person— according to their preferences: all the while— killing myself).
Let me explain one more thing to you about chronic trauma (which is from repeated exposure): there is a thing called— Hikikomori; and it means— to be spatially and socially— in/desiring— escape. It encompasses avoidant behavior— where a person uses a physical room to build a protective wall between themselves— and the world, people, situation, circumstances, that feels too demanding, judgmental, or overwhelming: that is the milder version of something that happens with complex trauma response: there is something much worse, actually— if this Hikikomori is unsuccessful.
It’s a state of Complex PTSD trauma— with an internal survival crisis unresolved; that results in a desire for conscious-life altogether— to stop existing (it’s that painful). And I suffered locked in a bedroom with physical, psychological, and emotional trauma this way— for over a decade of my life: and I only came out at night— when it was safe: which is one of the statements God asked me today— “Is it safe to come out now, to me, and to yourself, Janet?”
Nighttime eating— is because a person is comforting themselves, chemically— food, in ways that alter the way the BODY FEELS— in order to sedate themselves enough to continue on with life.
Nighttime activities— are usually taking place (up all night, sleep all day) because the night has everyone else that is dangerous during the day— asleep— and not monitoring you, nor is there any danger of their interacting with you; and thus— a person lets down a bit, comes out of hiding a bit, and engages in life— again— ‘a bit.’
I suffered this way for decades (to one degree or another) so badly— I could not hold a job— from shaking fear within— that I ‘would disappoint’ on the job (try being awesome at cutting hair, skill wise— but unable to perform from fear, shaking with scissors, and scared of the inability to perform— based on disappointing parents— long ago). It affected my life so much so— that I desired to ‘not be’ (which is this complex trauma PTSD response) —at all: not to God, not to myself, nor anyone else— because the pain of living life this way— is SO INTENSE: hence— why I am where I am currently with God, and what we are doing— right here— in all of this; and what we are doing privately (crying, releasing, talking, sorting) all day, everyday— until his workmanship is finished! And he always finishes what he starts!!
He said to me— “Imagine if humanity began to realize that people have the power to create pain, suffering, and loss— within people, or cultivate an atmosphere of healing— and we chose to heal each other now, and not steal, kill, or destroy one another— and we began to come through deliverance properly— what we would be— one toward the other: feeding each other, loving each other, hearing, seeing, and attending to the spiritual-soul and life of one another (that is heaven)—” he said to me.
Imagine God having to reveal and disclose to us during our life reviews— how we killed other’s soul identities: that’s very painful; because when we go through a life review— we EXPERIENCE IT (and it’s more real than this whole realm) from God’s perspective, other people’s perspective, and our own: all sides are justly recorded, and the results of what we lived— has its time of being weighed out— by Truth.
Some ways we ‘kill or destroy or steal from others—’ are spiritual— like mental abuse, emotional abuse, neglect of person, withheld love, support, nurturing, care, concern, provision, etc; and people go on living reduced, reductive, stifled, missing, disheveled, lives— like shells of what they once were (especially when not in this realm).
Some ways in which we ‘kill or destroy or steal from others’ is physical— whereby because we are walking in darkness, not delivered, hiding inside in trauma prisons of dissociation— we are so harsh to others— that they are killed— physcially— as they commit suicide to fully escape the incessent behavior of others (because there was no safe place, or person to turn to): the body and the spiritual-soul are PRECIOUS, people are PRECIOUS— and in this realm we experience the loss of that reality (which is what heaven is); but we are to be the people of God who HEAL— and do not KILL OR DESTROY: but I see professing Christians partaking in this daily— still: because they just keep step’n in life— right passed the people around them: that is a state that devils live in: what they are going after— inspite of others.
There is so much reason for us all to embrace Christ, the truth, love, and do the work: eternal life seriousness— actually. And so the Lord and I are doing this privately amongst myself— right now; but bringing forward all I am learning— and telling you what we are doing (going through the invitation to come out of hiding now, be invited back to life, expressing and releasing the pent up unexpressed expression of my being, to bring it all up and out— and to full resolution). And my hope is— that God’s people will come through all of this too— until we all get full victory in a material realm (healed— in the earth); and able to BE— AUTHENTICALLY— and SAFELY.
By the way we treat others, by the way we walk, talk, emote, communicate, connect, or not— we shall be known by the fruit of our person: whether we are of our Father God, or our father the devil— still yet in estrangement: I desire all would turn, repent, and be saved.
If we have the ability to kill, to steal, and to destroy: we have the capacity to heal, deliver, and restore life to others— as well.
The reason that C-PTSD is so painfully damaging— is because it causes severe injury to the nervous system (soul and body) of the person, as well as— a person’s identity. And it’s because of, like wartime torture, systematic, continued— neglect, abandonment, abuse, and destruction— long term; leaving a person in a state of feeling incessantly trapped in a place and state of helplessness and distress. The person’s freeze drive goes into overdrive— and decides that the only way to protect you from overwhelming emotional, continued, pain and suffering, flashbacks, and toxic shame OF ONE’S OWN IDENTITY— is to numb (drugs, addictions— sex, gambling, escape, etc), fragment (split, go away inside, and hide out) or MUTE— one’s consciousness (hence— dissociation to an extreme— when one decides that muting one’s own consciousness ENTIRELY [that’s the active living human being] —is the only recourse to get away from these people, circumstance, environment, or reality): ugh, and ouch.
Hikikomori is when a person is in a room attempting to hide away from the world (people, situations, circumstances, etc).
But when a person finds that their own thoughts (flashbacks— playing things from the unconscious film reels again and again— because they are unresolved and booting back up again to be seen, heard, and loved), and their memories and sense of self— are still causing them agony— the mind attempts an internal escape: and it tries to achieve ‘psychological non-existence,’ or severe dissociation (from others, the world, God, themselves).
And when this happens— a person’s nervous system’s ultimate, and desperate defense mechanism— is to keep you safe from a reality that feels too painful to experience and process: so this self-withdrawl and desire to cease to exist comes to focus.
Is all of this demonic— yes. It’s of the devil’s desire to steal, kill, and destroy: and it’s why coming through healing and deliverance is so critical to do. Are the people generally clueless— both the offenders and the offended of what is actually, spiritually, taking place— yes: but getting this kind of revelation, knowledge, wisdom, and workmanship to recover— out there— is part of combating this. And every soul that comes to do this with Christ— shall facilitate the release, recovery, reintegration, healing, deliverance, safety, and support of another— to follow the Lamb, the Good Shepherd— and do the same (with Christ’ family supportive people) —as we exemplify Christ in the earth, and what our heavenly abode functions like: as we are the people of God— who are a whole new creation— right?
Because— truthfully— souls do not incarnate into this realm with a sense and desire to die: it is thrust upon them as an option— by the actions of others (and then their own minds and bodies dealing with great distress— seek to truly get free, via death): it’s like a person is so desperate— because the pain is SO OVERWHELMING— that they begin to desire to stop being a person: the nervous system reaches its point of— can go no more, exhausted to an extreme— and it shuts down operation (or suggests it).
Think about that— the soul consciousness and body begin to align with the thought that… “The only way to save us from a reality of incessant pain and suffering (because of others and circumstances) is to stop existing at all as person in the physical realm (hence— bodily death, but also— a desire to stop the incessant noise of the unresolved, deeply imbedded, traumatic soul suffering of the fragmented soul).”
This has painted a very vivid picture for me— and also causes such COMPASSION in me. I know that I have been sent here to experience all of this: from the place where others systematically deconstructed my identity— from their own disheveled identity; to the place where I become healed, whole, and delivered of it all (perhaps in the same house it began in) —and can assist others in the very same thing: or at minimum— inform everyone of what God has shown me, what we are doing and coming through, and invite them to seek him about the same.
If we have the capacity to steal, kill, and destroy— we have the capacity to heal, restore, recover, love, and facilitate life: especially— if we are children of God, who become healed, delivered, and whole— functioning rightly in our own identities: thus is the kingdom of God.
I believe in the miracle of LIFE: Christ in us— to heal and restore. And THIS— has been my journey with our heavenly Father: may he bless you, keep you, restore you, recover you, invite you, intrigue you, comfort you, extend his hand of healing invitation— to come out from the shadows— and into the light: may you find liberty and freedom in our heavenly Father and his Christ— and the Holy Spirit of God.
I love you my brother or sister, friend, or comrade: “you still have amazing things ahead of you” (is what God said to me, and I am saying it to you): do you believe in Love and its recovery??
I do— and so— I pursue at all costs.
There is a popular meme going around (picture with words), and I shall leave us with it: because truly— we are called to be the people of God, to come through the way, into the truth, and live the life of God— in us (unity with God, as God is): and truly if we are going to bleed all over people— ought it be the blood/life of Christ— at least? I believe— yes.
When we actually unite with God inside— we will not be the way of darkness within us anymore— toward ourselves, or toward others: and so we must come through the narrow gate, along the narrow way, through the Door and life of the Lamb— to live a life in this realm (or any other) as we were created to do and be (cleanly, purely, authentically, and benignly). And that means— we need to be delivered into the truth, washed by it, immersed in our true-form again, swimming in the depths of love, extending and planting the flowers of— everywhere we go: or we have been saved— from nothing: for hell’s grip is still within us, over us as a headship, and we run with devils: salvation was offered to these— but they would not submit to the Lord’s hand.
I see our entrapments. I feel the weight of our disheveled ‘being’ in this realm. And I desire to see God’s people set free: but truly— we must ‘give ourselves’ to ‘being saved, made anew, and not content with our old man being.’ Or we will not change to become that— for it was not desired (change— that is); and then thus— the situations and circumstances, and identity— do not change: for we have rejected— spiritual unity— with God— as God is in his ‘being.’
If we, the people of God do not do this with God, and bring it to the others— who will?? For the only ones that are left, outside of God’s remnant in the earth— is the world; and the world will not save us, nor care for us, nor encourage the safe expression of our identities— as children of the most high, and true, God.
I believe in Love: and I will keep walking with him,
Until my spiritual identity is saved to
The utmost— in Christ.
Will you??
Jesus: by Akiane Kramarik
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